I think therefore I am

That is such a convient saying and so odd that it comes from someone who thought there was a evil genius at work in the world and it's day to day chores. Is the idea of self, the concept of being so easily defined simply by thinking. The rational mind is the key to existance? Some how I find myself at conflict with this idea. Especially since the idea of self is a preception, since preception of reality starts with viewing the world around us perhaps the correct method of using the rational mind is "I think therefore you are" as suggested in the series "Ergo proxy". The concept makes a bit more sense if you look at it from that standpoint, you can precieve others but can you truely preceive yourself? What you see you define as real therefore it exists but when it comes to precieving yourself you make judgements and create identy through what you believe to be true about yourself. It's like hearing your voice recorded, when you first hear it , you deny that it how your voice sounds, the idea that it sounds different from what you believe it to is a disturbing thought. It's a shaking of your identy, your concept of self.

On the other hand do we need rational thought at all to define ourselves as real , that we belong in this world that we feel. Feeling, emotion, the sound and touch of the rain on your skin, is this not enough to define myself as real. The only thing that stabalizes that feeling of losing self and of nonexistance is the memory of being held, the memory of touching the cold earth with my bare feet. This is Real to me, the world I interact with , perhaps it is not one but all of these things that makes the concept of reality true. I don't have the answer for another or myself, I just have more questions but questions I shall seek to answer in due time. So much more thinking to be done...